As I was writing my morning pages this morning it suddenly struck me how easily my mind wanders off when I sit down to write my own texts. I’m so much more focused when working on assignments. And it dawned on me that I have to try to figure out why my mind keeps wandering. What is it up to? Why? Do I find my own texts insignificant, unimportant? Or maybe writing what I want to write, what I believe I have to do, is just too damn difficult for me to do?
Perception is crucial to understanding. How you see, and what you see, determine how you will be. … We tend to perceive difficulty as disturbances. Ironically, difficulty can be a great friend of creativity.
I love the line from Paul Valery: “Une difficult est une lumiere. Une difficulte insurmountable est un soleil”—that is, “A difficulty is a light; an insurmountable difficulty is a sun.”
This is a completely different way of considering the awkward, the uneven, and the difficult. Deep within us, there is a terrible impulse and drive toward perfection. We want everything flattened into one shape. We do not like unexpected shapes.